That’s roughly how many Sundays there are until the beginning of the year in which I turn 65, and probably retire.
I know, that’s a long ways off.
But it’s not that far off.
And I won’t get to preach every one of those Sundays. I will be on vacation for some of those Sundays; I will have staff members who will want to speak for some of those Sundays; and I will have special speakers for some of those Sundays for things like Missions Conference or other special events. Over the course of those 13+ years, a conservative estimate would be that I would not preach 8 Sundays per year. That’s at least 104 Sundays I won’t be preaching, and that doesn’t account for emergencies or unexpected opportunities to have special speakers. So that cuts me down to 579 Sundays.
579 Sundays. That’s about 100 more sermon series, with a length of 5 – 6 messages. To those of you who have to sit and listen to me preach, it sounds like a lot of sermons.
But to me? That number is the number of grains of sand left in an hourglass, and they’re slipping through steadily.
Every week, that number decreases.
So for the time I have left, I want to be sure that every message counts,
The truth is that I’ve lived a significant part of my life in fear and anxiety. I’ve thought and worried too much about what other people think. I’ve tried too hard to please people, and tried to hard to avoid offending people so they wouldn’t leave the church.
But that kind of living is foolishness.
The truth is that no matter how hard I try, or how careful I am, I will always offend someone, somehow. I will always let people down and I will always disappoint some people.
So I’ve got to live my life according to what I think God wants from me.
Don’t get me wrong. I don’t have a license to offend, to alienate, to be inconsiderate, or to just be a jerk.
But I can’t let my leadership of others be governed by fear or by their expectations.
Leadership can be selfish and controlling – manipulative. But it can also be motivational – unselfishly leading people to a difficult place, on a difficult journey, that will ultimately be for their benefit.
684 Sundays. That’s my number. I’ve got to make the most of it. I’ve got to lead differently, invest myself more in young leaders, take more risks, take bigger risks, push other leaders to go where they may not want to go but desperately need to go.
My challenge, my mission, is to fundamentally change the culture and direction of our church so that we are fulfilling Christ’s call. Because right now, while we’re doing some very good things, the hard and honest truth is that we’re failing. And if we keep doing what we’re doing, we’ll keep getting what we’re getting.
We have to change. I have to lead change. And I know what it will cost, because I’ve gone there before.
That’s my number.
What’s your number?
What are you going to do about it?